The Curious Music That I Hear: The Talk

Spoiler Alert.
This post is about SEX so please, if you don't want to hear about my opinions on sex, DON'T CONTINUE READING!!!! But seriously, I think you're all over the age f 12 so we hopefully are all mature enough!!!

Why is everyone so afraid of the topic of sex?
In my friend's basement last night, we were debating about what Tom should write his next blog on. I offered the topic of sex. And instantly people felt awkward. Sorry guys, but I was serious. At the mention of the 'S' word, everyone laughed nervously and refused to comment on the subject. Is it because I'm a girl and your friend therefore you think we shouldn't discuss it? Well I know everyone thinks about it sometimes, even girls!!! I don't mean we need to go throwing the touchy subject around like its something to be proud of, but hey, its a part of life right? So here's what I think:

Sex is not that big of a deal, but its a much bigger deal than a lot of people think. When I say it's not a huge deal, I mean that it doesn't have to be something you need to contemplate enormously or over think or tell everyone about or preserve forever. Loosing your virginity can be this funny, awkward experience with someone you really love. And if you thought you loved them and realize later that you don't, ok. Don't sweat it kiddo. It happens, but you loved them at the time right? So don't let it get to you that much, you feel like you made a mistake, don't let it happen again, be safe and understand that it's a part of growing up. But it shouldn't be some one night stand, hook up thing that you just wanted to get over with. It's special, it should happen in a way that you can look back on and accept.
Everyone thinks about sex, girls, boys, teachers, sibblings, grandparents, so get over it. Let's try not to make it any more awkward than it has to be. My parents are always making jokes about sex to make me feel uncomfortable. But they don't succeed. Whatever, wait til I talk about sex, then whose going to be uncomfortable! But to tell you the truth, I doubt my parents will be uncomfortable when I talk to them about having sex. I know they want me to tell them when I come to that situation and so I will because I trust them and I want them to trust me. They are apart of my life, and I want to be able to let them know when I decide to take that step. Sorry if any of you think that's weird but I tell my parents pretty much everything. And I know they will support me in that decision.
But just because I want to be open about sex, doesn't mean I want to go out and grab the next person I see and tap them like a maple tree. I want to be in love with that person, and for me that means waiting until marriage. I am a pretty indecisive person, as I have previously mention. So I think it would suck to be in a relationship with someone, decide I'm ready for sex, then relaize I hate their guts. Most guys I have dated I end up disliking in the end and we stop talking. Or just grown apart. And I wouldn't be comfortable then, knowing that I gave them suchj a huge part of me only to have it end up being so meaningless.
But hey, I'm indecisive, so who knows how it'll happen. I say now that I want to wait until marriage, but I also said it should be with someone you really love. And I don't believe in one true love. I have loved many people in different ways, so who is to say I won't love someone even if I don't marry them? Then isn't it ok? I think so. Since I don't love anyone right now, I can't say. But if in 5 years I meet someone and we're together and love each other, would it be such a sin to physically show that? I don't think so. But you can feel free to disagree (I'm a poet and I didn't even know it).
Your sexuality is between you and your partner. That said, it's good to talk about it with people to an extent, just to be sure you're being safe and open. But don't listen to anyone who wants to tell you it's a sin to have sex outside of marriage. What you choose to do is your decision only, and you need to be on the same page as your partner. John 4:7 Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. So it is right to love, of course.

"Sex, life, healing, nature magic." That's love. I choose to love completely and unconditionly in life. That involves sex. So there. I said it. I'm not afraid of it, I'm willing to talk about it, and I understand what it means and the maturity that has to come along with it. So for anyone who doesn't agree with me, that's totally ok. I just wanted to expand in the subject, because it's something that should be open for communication. I want to be in love with someone, not because of sex, but because I want to be apart of someone and I want someone to be apart of me. I'm excited for it to happen. Love is just beautiful. And I can't to experience it!

These pictures are from my favorite movie, Beginners. And it's about falling in love. Maybe I'm childish, but I think the idea of falling in love and everything that goes along with it is exciting. Ewan McGregor plays the perfect guy. This movie portrays my secret longing to fall in love with a guy who talks to his dog and is working on creating balance in his life that involves the help of a girl who is a lot like me... you should watch this movie.